Sunday, January 14, 2007
I bled 5 times in 2 days before my nose decided to stem the blood. It really isn't a big deal to wonder if i did suffer from any chronic disease, but i wonder, if i really do, will people around me really miss me if i'm gone? Will they know if i did love them in one form or another? Knowing these are simply rhetorical questions, i guess we'll just leave it at that, though i'm still wondering all the same.
Guess I haven't really got over my attitude, i'm still so...young in thoughts. Only during the genting trip did it really widened my scope of thinking. Boy en route to being a man you say, yes, i do agree. Though i've grown more iron-willed, i do get swayed easily, though i managed to put up brave fronts, i'm still as bare to those raw critiques.
Dog-eat-dog world indeed.
When i blog, i don't even show wad i truly want to portray; my true emotions. Why is it turning into a daily entertainment for blog readers? I doubt that was the original intention. With a need to reset how i am, i'm really at end's wits. I'm always procrastinating; exercising, doing projects, studying, doing more meaningful stuff and such. It's already a new year and what have i been thinking?!
NAFA's a year away, project due in 5 days, ain't prepared for profiency test.... so much stuff and all i can think of is procrastinating. RAH. I think i need a major mentality makeover. I suck. I guess never have i wrote such a 'true' entry before. Ok, from tomorrow onwards, i'm gonna change, for the better, I be a whole new person. Projects gonna be done BY tomorrow, i dunno how, but yes, i'll rush tommorrow, and i'll hold myself to it, else....200 push ups & sit ups, hah, a win-win situation. Seriously, i doubt it'll help make me fitter but it's worth a shot. No time, then i guess 50 each every morning and night. Weekends shall jog by myself if Grace is gonna sleep past the time. Can't force them if they dun wanna eh. But I'm not jogging later tho, will be simply too tired.
Played, badminton, Twister and drank lots of water due to forfeits at H's house today anyway. Great time there.
I already feel so much better after this. (ain't lying!) K den, busy day tomorrow, gotta sleep now, nights.
escorted; - 1:44 AM;
